are you freakin kidding me?

ok so Emma's dad is a total dead beat. the reason she is gone with him every weekend is not because he loves his child so much and wants to spend as much time as humanly possible with her. it is because he cant afford the measly 200$ child support payment he is supposed to give me so that is the next best thing i could come up with short of going back to court.

so she comes home sunday night. she had been starting a mild ear infection last week. i asked them to keep an eye on it. really simple right? if it gets worse bring her to the dr, if it gets better, great.

so he brings her home and tells me that he doesnt know what is wrong with her and that he thinks maybe she had a seizure or something because she is acting funny. i said 'well. if it was a seizure you would kind of know cause she pukes all over the place. did she puke? no? ok so not a seizure'. then she takes off her toque and i look at her. her right ear and side of her face is swollen, bad. the ear is bright red and there is stuff oozing from it. i asked if he bothered to even look at her.

how the F*UCK can you miss that? so then he says he will come monday and drive us to the dr. suprise, he stayed in bed all day and didnt call until like 3 pm when the walkin dr was gone. it was like -30° here that day so i wasnt making the poor thing walk and i am so broke that i cant afford a cab right now.

yesterday morning i walked her over, it was still cold but thankfully the wind wasnt as horrid. she has a middle and outer ear infection and is on yet another round of antibiotics and drops four times a day for a week. now he had not called here since late monday afternoon. i asked Emma to call his house and leave a message saying we are home and to call her back.

the guy never called. i called him at 4pm today. he answered half asleep and i said 'nice of you to call'. the answer i got? 'yeah i didnt check the answering machine until just like an hour ago.'

then, THEN! oh it just keeps getting better i swear. i said. 'so, you worked a job for 4 entire weeks and keep giving me this line of bs that you have yet to get paid.where is the money and i want some this week. i am broke. i cant even afford milk without scrounging for change in the couch and i have been spending money on meds for OUR daughter that YOU keep bringing home sick for ME to deal with because YOU are too stupid'. ready for this? he actually told me to fu*k off, he doesnt have time for this sh*t and hung up on me. i swear to god. one day i will kill him and i will justify it by means of pure insanity, the insanity he makes me feel by being so friggin stupid. *pulls her hair out a little*

he has yet to call back and is ignoring the phone. &*($&#*(#)%& *&*($* @(#*)($*(@#*$