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Sometimes it gets to be so long between posts that it just seems easier not to post at all.

Aaaannyway. What's been going on with this Ottawa Mom lately? Trips, colds, family visits and getting ready to go back to work. Eeesh. This time next week and I'll be preparing for my first day back. I'm not actually going back until Tuesday but Sunday is when you get ready for such things, no?

So, as you can imagine, I'm rather underwhelmed with the reality of heading back to work. Danica will be under the loving care of her grandparents and I'm grateful for that. Heading back to work is stressful enough without having to worry about sending my baby to Daycare.

I had the opportunity to work for a few days earlier in the year and I think that helped me not dread the inevitable return to work. Part of me enjoyed the challenges and pace and social aspect of work.

But of course, if I had the choice I'd stay home with my girl.

One good thing about going back to work....life tends to be more structured so hopefully I'll get to posting regularly again. :)

Unexpected

It's no secret that I don't want to go back to work. I'd rather stay at home with my sweet baby girl and wear track pants 90% of the time. But the long and short of it is that I HAVE to go back.

So this week I'm working half days to help out during an extremely busy time for the coworkers I left behind. It turns out that this was a great decision. I've been on the clock since Monday afternoon and will wonders never cease but I'm kind of enjoying myself! Go figure.

Let me just admit now to both myself and to you that I would still much rather be home playing with Danica. She is the light of my life and my reason for being but putting my mind to some problem solving and working on deadlines has done wonders for my demeanor.

I feel great. I feel challenged and engaged and..... useful. I hesitate to use that word but it's the best I can come up with after 10 months of Mommy Brain. I loved pushing through the piles of work. I loved training an employee how to do her job. I was actually pleased to bring a box of work home with me because I know how much a difference I'm making in the lives of my coworkers by doing so.

All this was most unexpected.

So even though the thought of going back to work full-time come April still tears at my heart, I know that it's not as bad as I've been dreading. I can do this. I have to do this. We will all survive.

The End is Near

What a week!

Oh, you mean it's only Monday?

Cripes.

I'm working half days this week. Back to the job after almost 10 months of being a way. After this week I'm back to enjoying what's left of my Mat Leave. By 'what's left', I mean not even 3 months and that just depresses the hell out of me.

I figured this was a good way to dip my toe into the waters of the life of a working mom. I'd really rather not go anywhere near the water at all but life being what it is, I have to go back to work.

I'm really struggling with the whole thing.